Your Will Be Done

Romans 12:2
Do not conform any longer to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is- His good, pleasing and perfect will.


Romans 8:28
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to His purpose.


I am a Sanguine-Choleric.  Most of the time, I hate it when I am not in control.  And this brings so much anxiety as I get through life.

But when I started to develop my intimacy with God, through my Lord and Saviour Jesus Christ, I have learned to pray for His will and ask for strength to obey it.  It was not hard despite the fact that all my life, what I always thrive for is to be in control of everything.  Why?  Because I believe in God's promise that His will is perfect and He has the best plan for me.

It is so amazing when you have so much faith to His Word.  There is so much peace and joy in my life as I surrender to Him.  And everyday as I pray and listen to Him through His Words, my everyday life brings so much contentment, joy and peace that I will never trade for anything else.

Must See Movie: COURAGEOUS

Saw the movie at CCF's free movie night last Friday with some of our friends.

I was in tears and I was deeply touched.  Highly recommended especially to fathers and husbands!

Medicine To My Anxious Heart

Last week, a letter had put so much trouble and anxiousness to my heart.  I felt helpless and I was slowly being dragged to darkness. But I knew better already than to sulk in tears and have a pity party inside me.  I prayed to God in Jesus name and His promise came to my heart:

Hebrews 13:5

..... Never will I leave you;

          never will I forsake you.

Hebrews 13:6

So we say with confidence,

   " The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid.

      What man can do to me?"

As I keep on saying these words in my mind,  the amazing thing happened.  My heart grew calm and peaceful.  God is really faithful, and I have learned to trust in Him, and surrender in His will.  My God is bigger than my problems. 

I praise God for his faithfulness and mercy through His Son, my Lord and Saviour, Jesus Christ.

In His Presence Day 2

What truth I have learned:

• Understand the God is in control.  If we want to have calm within, cease striving from the worries, anxieties and frustrations inside.  
• Spend time listening to God through his Word.  
• Nourish our soul.  Feed the one that tells us to please God.
• Surrendering to the Lord is not about giving up, but giving in to His love, grace, destiny, blessings.
• The deepest cry of the soul is REST.  The deepest longing of the soul is PURPOSE.  The greatest need of the soul is RE-ALIGNMENT.

I am blessed to once again learn from His words.  I am a living testimony of how God's grace and love can calm your heart amidst all the trials and hardships of life.  

God bless us all! 

2012 CCF Leadership Conference - Day 1

Very important points that I got from our speaker Pastor Edmund Chan that touched me:

•     Truth doesn't change lives.  Truth applied does.
•     Intimacy with God is neither earned or deserved.  It is an invitation from God.
•     We are created to enjoy intimacy with the Lord.
•     Peace is not the absence of trouble.  Peace is the presence of God.
•     Approval of God is more important than the applause of men.  
•    Our soul's desire should be to please HIM by believing and following Jesus.
•    And we can only do the the one thing that will please Him if we are in His presence.

The seminar is actually about discipleship, that which is what Jesus wants us to do.  We (with Vergil) are not yet leaders of a small group but we are really blessed by what w have learned.

Day 2 today.

God bless us all!

The Choice: His Will

I can say the offer for me to go back to corporate life is tempting... especially the position (power) and money.  Before I saw the offer, I am somewhat decided on what to choose, but when I actually saw it - I had nagging doubts.  My mind keeps on playing already on what I can buy or pay with the money.

But I prayed hard for the Lord's wisdom.  This time, I want to do His will and not mine.  I also discussed this to people dear to me, especially my husband.

I've been out of the corporate for almost 3 years already. And one thing I did not enjoy was not having a regular amount of income. But being with the kids most of the time is just one thing I really loved the most.

As I was meditating and praying on this... I really felt more and more at peace with my decision to move forward.  I got out of the corporate because I want more out of life - to have more time with my husband and kids and be there for them for most of the milestones in their lives.  And I took the risk already by deciding to get out-  I felt it was not a time for me to give up. And since I felt more peace already and the temptation is not that strong anymore-  I know it is God's will for me to already move forward and pursue my purpose in life.

I really thank God because my direction is now clear to me.  And I really look forward into discovering more and more of His promises and what is best for me according to His will.

I've never felt really more excited about life than now.  Amidst all the problems and hardships - I feel peace, love and contentment.  That is really the power of accepting Jesus - the Spirit starts to live in you.

:-)

Praying for Wisdom

I am a little bit confused now and asking for God's guidance.  I don't want to decide without His intervention.

The corporate offer is very tempting.  But I am now given the opportunity to start putting up something that would give me more time with my family, especially the kids.

Need to really pray for this.  Help me Jesus.

Grateful

I've been praying about this.  And God never really fails to give to those who ask.  I've already learned to ask for God's guidance in every decision that I was going to make.  And true enough, when he gives you peace in a decision, it is the right decision.  And I have never felt more at ease.

I am really excited and looking forward for the next days to come.

God's Gift

I attended my first bible class last night for me to learn the bible in the right way.  It has been my resolution to know more about God and Jesus and to get intimately dependent on them. Now it has become my pursuit.

And I learned last night that it is God's desire for us to have Eternal Life and Abundant life.

John 3:16  For God so loved the world that he gave his only son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal live


But we are separated from Him because of our sin problem.  That is why depending only to ourselves, on what we can do will not give us God's love and grace and gift of eternal life.  It is only by our strong faith in God that we can receive His grace.  How do we make such a strong faith out of us?

John 14:6  Jesus said: I am the way, the truth and the life.  No one comes to the Father except through me.


Jesus has told us himself that He is the ONLY way that we can get through God.  And accepting him, believing in Him and knowing Him will give us the Eternal Life God made available for us.

These truths are really liberating for me.  And it is now giving me light to the right path of what is really my purpose in life.

And I thank the Lord God and Lord Jesus for all the trials and hardships that had humbled me.  It had made me came seeking for Him.

And I am experiencing now so much peace in my heart amidst the problems and trials.  Because I have Jesus in me and He will never forsake me.

Praise God for giving us Jesus our saviour!

Updates: Maxene's 1st Birthday

Be Grateful Today

1. I have a beautiful family.
2. I have healthy kids.
3. We have a nice house.
4. We have food in our table.
5. My kids are comfortable.
6. My son is in a good school.
7. My mom and brother are helping me out in the house.
8. My mother in law and father in law for always helping us.
9. My family for always being there for us.
10. We have some comforts and wants others don't have.
11. We saw a business that can lead us to a great life and we have mentors who are patient and tjey never fail to give support.
12. We have great friends.
13. I was able to buy gifts for Christmas.
14. We were able to sell some stuff.
15. We have aircon at home.
16. We received a package from Nonong and family.

The New Blog To A New Me

I am keeping this blog private until I am ready to bare my soul to everyone.  For the moment, this blog will chronicle my journey to a better me through my new found love and faith in Jesus and God.  I am keeping a strong hope that this is the start of a better future for me.  For almost 2 years, I kept in the dark wondering what went wrong and blaming other people of the circumstances.  Until I found the Lord Jesus.  And now I understand why I had to go through the pain, frustration, disappointment and hard life. For me to be able to go back to Him and realize - that I cannot lean on my own understanding and control my life.  I had to let go and trust Him.

I am looking forward for peace and happiness in my heart and for those around me.

Thank you Lord. And I love you.

I Think I Did Great

I think I did great with my talk yesterday.  If great means my mentor telling me that he is so proud of me and other people congratulating me for sending a great message across, I think I really did great!  Sayang lang I did not thought na of bringing my camera para sana man lang me video. And Vergil din was not there.. so sad.  But he is badly needed by his parents so I understand.

Will be hearing the mass today with Miggy.

Updates when I get back.

Sad But Grateful

Just logged in to check for any new update from Tina Tagle's blog... it is now readers by invitation only from the owner of the blog.  Buti na lang nabasa ko na all of her entries... kaso no more updates.

Sad.

But well, I have things naman today that I should be grateful about:

1.  My husband and my two cute kids- they are healthy and well
2.  I am in great health
3.  I arrived at my appointment safe and result is positive
4.  I have my mother and brother to look after my kids while I am out of the house
5.  I ate and was full
6.  Free wifi here at Amway center - coffee machine is out of order though
7.  My brother lent me his netbook- our notebook is too mabigat for me to carry around
8.  My husband booked a BBS ticket last night
9.  Our business mentors
10. I am growing to be a better person everyday

How about you? What are the things you're grateful today?

Back for the nth time

I am back... hahaha! I hope this time I am gonna do this consistently.

Reason why? I got so inspired by Tina Tagle's blog Serendipity.

Gotta read more... then will start to update! 

Book Fair

This will be worth a visit next week.  I might score some good books for me and hubby and for the little boy!

For more info visit :    http://www.manilabookfair.com/

St Lukes Global City

I happened to stumble upon this at Chuvaness blog (I am a fan of her blog!).  My click the link below and see what a 50k/night hospital room look like!!

Here's a teaser:

Click here for more pictures.

I Want!

For a preggy mom like me, I badly need a comfy shoes for my ever tired feet. I found this while browsing Femalenetwork's Shopcrazy. and I definitely want one!

Get one online! Visit Suelas and check out their other collections!

Be A Hero

I was in my usual schedule Friday night, August 30. Got two appointments in the evening and we got home around 11:30 already. I did not feel anything wrong when I went to bed and I was surprise when I woke up around 5 am that my throat hurts. So I went down and made a saltwater gargle solution. I tried to go back to sleep but the pain was already throbbing and I felt it getting worse. Around 7am, the pain in my throat extended up to my ears and this time, the pain is already excruciating to the point where I can no longer talk nor swallow food. To make the story short, I was rushed at Asian Hospital 11pm that Saturday night, was diagnosed with tonsillitis and needed immediate operation since it is already swollen and white patches are all over it. Of course, they have to consider that I am pregnant and the safety of the baby and me is at utmost importance. I was brought to the OR 6am in the morning after so much needles and tests, put on sleep thru general anethesia and they drained the white patches (nana in tagalog). They did not perform tonsillectomy since I was pregnant but suggested after I gave birth to go through it. Around 11:30am I ws brought back to my room from the recovery area where I woke up and felt relief in my throat although there's pain from the operation. Doctors declared me and the baby is safe already.

The entire ordeal was so fast that I did not have time to react already. All I wanted was the pain to go away because it was killing me. I really appreciate my husband more for being so strong and supportive. He was alone the entire time, worrying about me and the baby, not to mention that we were not ready financially for the staggering hospital bills. But he kept his smile and loving eyes and told me not to worry because he'll take care of everything. Of course I can't help but get worried after I saw the bill because I am due with the baby November and all our resources are exhausted already. But you see, what I saw in my husband that day made me trust that everything will be ok. This is just a challenge where you just have to choose: will you think like a hero and act on it? or be like a victim - wallow and cry and feel like it's the end of the world.

My husband chose to be a hero. And with that, I chose to be one too. Side by side, I know we can go through this together.

Help Me Organize

Now this will become a big help for me especially that I am the type who loves big and spacious bags and always ends up fishing things in my bag. Look at what I found online:

FILED folders but funkier and more fun!


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