6/16/2006

Lost

Much have been said... much have been done. For the past years, i tried to psyche myself that i'm on the right track when it comes to my career. I've earned my points and still looking forward for more, but why do i still feel so empty? I thought slowly climbing up the corporate ladder will make me happy but i guess i'm wrong. I didn't want to entertain the truth... tried to forget about it, but it's still haunting me. Guess i can't ran away from it much longer... THIS IS NOT WHAT I WANT AND I CAN NEVER BE HAPPY... There goes my whole career collapsing in my mind. But at least, i feel better now knowing that i can no longer force myself to love something i never really wanted from the start. Oh well, i've nothing against being an accountant... it's just that it's not really my thing.... it's my dad's!

Realization stage done. Now comes the action stage. Where do i start? It's not that easy to give up my job... especially that i'm earning from it. I know my husband will support me of whatever that makes me happy, but still i have to accept the fact that my present job offers security and stability. But on the other hand, i know so many persons who have shift careers and became more successful. Well i guess i just have to take the risk and hold on to my belief that if you follow your heart... you can never go wrong.

Well i think this still requires a lot of thinking.... a lot of sleepless nights and prayers. But with God's blessing and my family and my husband's love and support, I will make the best decision.

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