"Our first problem is that our attitude toward sin is more self-centered than God centered."- Jerry Bridges in Holiness Day by Day
How true is this for me most of the time! Most of my life, I was success oriented: my school life had been being on top always, my entire work career was geared toward achieving victory over challenges and soliciting commendation and promotion. I thank God for this devotional this morning, which reminded me that my struggle toward sin should not be focused on overcoming it because I can, but because I love the Lord and I want to please Him. That I fear to grieve His heart and put Him on the cross over and over again. I admit that sometimes, my hunger for personal victory overshadows my longing to want to please the Lord through obedience to His word. That is why sometimes, there is no joy in every defeat, because I obeyed for selfish and self satisfying reasons, not out of fear and love.
I pray to God that He remind me always, that it is only through Jesus that I am forgiven and have victory over sin. That it is only His power, love, mercy and grace that I have willingness to obey Him and fight to overcome sin. I cannot and never will have overcome sin on my own strength, but only through Jesus alone who had suffered on the cross to save me.
“I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace.
In this world you will have trouble. But take heart!
I have overcome the world.”
When I was a new Christian, I have heard about spiritual dryness and I have always thought that it won't happen to me since I was on fire for the Lord. Everyday, I was hungry for His Word and I can sit all day reading the Bible and talking to Him. My free time was always prayer time- be it a short jeepney or bus ride, shower time, or short walk to and from. Life was difficult then as we were down financially, but there was genuine peace and joy inside me. It was amazing!
Then the Lord blessed us with more than we deserved and I became busy in the process not wanting to pause and meditate as I always find myself needing to meet deadlines. My quiet time with Him became dry in the process that I almost cannot hear Him. I knew deep in my heart that the joy and peace, only the presence of the Lord can give, is slowly fading away. The pull of the world on me became stronger and my flesh suddenly woke up with renewed strength and conviction to reign on me. The struggle, the spiritual warfare the Apostle Paul described in Romans 7 was now becoming real right through me:
I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do. And if I do what I do not want to do, I agree that the law is good. As it is, it is no longer I myself who do it, but it is sin living in me. For I know that good itself does not dwell in me, that is, in my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For I do not do the good I want to do, but the evil I do not want to do—this I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.
Psalm 51: 10-11
Create in me a clean heart, O God
And renew a steadfast spirit within me.
Do not cast me away from Your presence
And do not take Your Holy Spirit from me.
For Vergil's birthday, we went to Acacia Hotel for a weekend stay. If there's one thing that stand out for this hotel, its the courteous, accommodating, helpful and cheerful staff! I love how they treat you special anytime, anywhere!
Enjoy the photos:
Enjoy the photos:
|Separate shower stall: had one problem lang with it. The glass partition cannot contain the water inside.|
|The kitchenette. Notice lang, no separate sink for washing the dishes.|
|They delivered this to our room, aren't they nice and thoughtful?|
Posted by Grace at 3:26:00 PM